I’m really happy to be starting this new year. I think turning the page to a completely blank one (not the best metaphor in my opinion, but I’ll go with it) feels so refreshing and it’s good to get out of this old year and into the new one. It almost feels like slipping into a bed with freshly cleaned sheets. This is going to be a big year. A stressful year. But hopefully a year that will make me a better person and a happier one as well.
I want to be happy in 2019. That’s probably the main goal of this year. Oh, and to graduate. I guess that’s a good one too.
I mean, it’s definitely very important. Don’t worry, I’m going to graduate, I promise.
I just think happiness and one’s mental health is something everyone really needs to pay a little more attention to because it can be pretty tricky to deal with. And I’m not like self-diagnosing myself with anything, though that is one of my favorite hobbies, but I want to focus on making sure I’m completely aware of my own mental health and that of others’ too, especially focusing on my friends and family. I want to make sure everyone feels happy and not completely drowning in their sorrows or stresses. It happens sometimes and I always love when a friend checks in on me because sometimes you don’t want to admit to needing someone, so I want to be there for them.
Oh, I’m fine, you’ll think, yeah I’m lonely and hurt by the world and nothing seems to make sense or I can’t bring myself to do anything productive or required, but I’m fine. News flash, you’re not fine. You need to talk to someone. Start with a friend. Share your struggles because even though you want your friends to notice your pain without you having to say a single thing, sometimes they’re completely lost in their own pain that they won’t see you hurting. Maybe start by asking them how they’re doing. How’s their own mental health? Are they happy? Talking about these things and bringing mental health to the front of your life is a good goal to set in this new year. It’s one of my goals, and I think I’ll probably talk about it a lot on this blog.
(also, everyone should listen to Dodie’s song “Secret for the Mad” because it touches on a lot of the moments I’m talking about and I really love her and this song in particular and I think everyone should too.)
This brings me to another goal for the upcoming year. I want to write more on this blog. I am going to commit myself to writing at least two posts a month, as I don’t want to overwhelm myself because I won’t do it if it feels too difficult. I just know myself. I’m making a list currently of what I want to write about and I’m going to do it. I want to get this practice in and I want to write. I really love writing and I feel like I’ve lost it. Yes, I’m an English major and I’m writing constantly, but it only ever feels like work. Work. Work. Work. I think if I consistently write on here, this blog will help me feel like maybe writing isn’t just work, and maybe it will bring me back to loving to write.
The last goal I’m going to share on this blog is my goal of trying a new recipe each. I’m a vegetarian, so sometimes meals can become repetitive and boring. Like pasta and spinach or chickpea stir-fry over and over again. I really love cooking for myself and finding new things to make on Pinterest and other websites. I also love cookbooks. It’s a weird obsession I’ve had since I was a little kid. So, I’m making it a goal to try something new from either Pinterest or a cookbook and make myself (and maybe friends!) a new meal each month (I know that seems so minimal but I have to start somewhere) to grow as a cook and find new recipes to make regularly. This feels like a very random goal to include after some fairly serious ones, but I think it blends in well with the idea of happiness and writing—as food generally makes one a little happier, and I think I might try and blog about this food expedition. Maybe include after a few posts, a recipe I tried and what I thought about it. I love blogs that talk about food and I totally would love to become a food blog, but I also love the focus my blog has on my life and books, etc. I think maybe I could intertwine these ideas into my blog to fully reveal who I am as a person. But first I have to make some actually good food first.
I have other goals and resolutions for this year, like reading more and drinking more water, the basics really, but I won’t bore the internet with my many wishes for change in my own life. I wanted to share these three though because I felt like maybe they could both inspire others and also push me to becoming the person I want to be. I felt like maybe if I write these down and publish them for the world to see, maybe I’ll accomplish them and feel less sad about not reaching my goals at the end of 2019.
2019. This is going to be a great year because I am going to make it a great year. Let me know some goals you’re setting for yourself. Stay happy this year all, please. And see you in my next post, which will definitely be this month because that is now my goal. Hold me to it.